Yukikiew's Blog

Its secretly killin’ me

yukikiew — Mon, 24 Jan 2011 19:13:14 +0000

i dont want to feel this way, it sucks so badly that its rubbing salt to iti. i dont want to think of it but the more i think the more upset it gets. just give me an answer i will leave u straight away, i will not talk to u anymore. we’ll be strangers. i am always hoping always having hopes and then got it crushed. its something that would never happen i know its freaking impossible. trying to make you feel better but im crying like a baby crying for milk with heartbreaks.. i dont know wht u’re thinking but i no longer want to know no longer want to experience it again but the same old things happen again i shouldnt have gone on9 hoping that u would talk to me or even start a conversation me and my stupid mindset should just get the fuck off me so that i wont be here burying myself with all the sad songs i could probably come up with replaying it over and over just to get more tears rolling down my cheeks and then jet lag start chasing me to sleep u know that kind of feeling? crying until u’re tired and yr brain no longer can take it and it drift off to sleep. u’re the first guy tht makes me feel this way and why am i still lovin u they say good things come to those who wait maybe i should wait till u got a gf and give up i know u’re worth my wait it hurts it really does im smiling to wave u gudbye im stubborn to say im fine when im not i had to lie i just had to becux only then we both are good i still kept yr text still kept yr pix i see them when im missing u and now im really missing u

yukikiew — Fri, 24 Sep 2010 12:04:41 +0000

Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within

i wonder if u ever think of me
between yr dreams and reality
in the morning sunrise, upon waking
in the midnight, amongst the starry sky

friends are those who still stay even when they’ve experienced the worst part of u

And sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere, all of a sudden this overwhelming sadness rushes over me and i get discouraged and i get upset and i feel hopeless, sad, and hurt and once again i become numb to the world.

SUNSHINE

yukikiew — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 00:25:20 +0000

I’m sorry I constantly want to talk to you. I’m sorry when you take long to reply I get sad. I’m sorry if I say things that might piss you off. I’m sorry if I come off as annoying. I’m sorry if you don’t wanna talk to me as much as I wanna talk to you. I’m sorry if I think about you too much & too often. I’m sorry if I say things I don’t really mean. I’m sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you don’t really care. I’m sorry if I come off as being clingy, but its just me missing you.

yukikiew — Sat, 27 Mar 2010 14:17:19 +0000

“Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.”

- A Walk To Remember

“Today, I realized how insecure I was. Is it the physical distance that’s doing the separation, or is it the plain thinking that I’ll lose what I having now? Whatever it is, I don’t want to know the process of losing everything. I’d rather just get to the end and cry.”

“You know the most disappointing thing isn’t the skepticism any random person gives me, but the incredulity a close one shows me when you expect them to actually believe you.”

Today I realised that not everyone will stay by your side, even your best friend. Sure, there will be times of ups and downs, this and that, but when I look closer, I see the distance, I see the gap. It’s hard to believe, but they go when they want to. The only best friend you’ll ever have is yourself.”

“Once in a while, you feel like you’re a let down and you can’t accomplish what you want. Truth is, it doesn’t stop there. You gotta keep working on it to make the ending a fresh beginning.”

“My dear, even if it all falls apart, even if it all ends one day, remember that you are a part of me, and all those memories we shared will never be altered. Remember that you were that special one for me. Remember.”

“It’s sad to see how people can easily degenerate from somebody to nobody, just in that instant, and you’re ranked socially. It is a stupid system, but that’s the way our world works.”

“Sometimes people say you should give up because it isn’t right for you, or you’ll fail if you do it. But they do not know that it’s all worth the risk to fight for it, and you know that you can do it.”

“I don’t know how to describe this feeling. It’s like an empty space has been etched intentionally on my heart just to remind me that you’re not here with me. It’s there to make me miss you terribly.”

yukikiew — Fri, 19 Mar 2010 13:09:36 +0000

“Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right and forget the ones that don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it’d be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.”

Augustus,

yukikiew — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 16:48:35 +0000

It was all too hard, too harsh, too pain to going through all this.
I never thought we would ended up this way,
the same old story line.
I never want to lose you,
i look up on you as the one i will be depending on for the rest of my life.
The one i will spend my whole life with,
i was still planning for a movie with you before the text.
Your love faded away,
you don’t love me anymore.
i am struggling my way, stuck on you,
there’s no way to pull myself out from those memories i had with you,
though it was short and sweet i certainly treasure those limited time with you.
Is there no other way to twist this ending?
I love you, seriously i do.
The best thing about me is you,
but it’s no longer the same,
i know i know i know,
why do you have to leave????
Am i too bad for you?
My heart is wounding,
i love you truly, because with you everything seems so possible.
Even forever the least achievable looks so possible with you.

yukikiew — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 03:57:45 +0000

It all boils down to my fault again,
for going out with them not you guys,
since it’s that case then fine i shall not go out with anyone,
but just me alone and meet my best friend.
Will that do you a favor?
Just when i thought things were getting better,
every things are making the wrong turn,
leaving me to change the direction.
Lazy is always an excuse i have for myself,
because i felt i no longer belong to you guys.
Perhaps i am gone for good isn’t?
When things reach it’s highest peak,it fall in an instant.
You’re only granted that few moment.
YUKI YOU REALLY SUCKS.
I SUCKS I SUCKS
I SUCKS A BIG TIME.
I am losing myself anytime.
is too much for me to handle.

yukikiew — Sat, 27 Feb 2010 17:39:35 +0000

Just when will i be true to myself and stop deceiving myself.
The person who always stays in your heart is the one you love most.

yukikiew — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 16:31:49 +0000

I hate to admit it, but i have to be frank with myself.
I don’t like the hot and cold treatment u always have for me,
you lift me up one day and pull me down another day.
My presence is not transparent, is visible.
Please don’t treat me like one.
You’re ignoring me aren’t you?
You said you wanted to talk to me so badly, yet is there anything you have done to prove your words? No.
Girls need the sense of security, i felt that mine is distancing away from me.
please don’t pull me away from you, no cold shoulder.
The cold is trembling me so much..
i don’t like it when no words were exchange with you.
It will be better.
i know, i can’t change you, but to love for who you’re.

The Five years promise,

yukikiew — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 03:36:05 +0000

I knew it,
i knew i have always kept you in my heart.
You said after five years you will married me,
i was elated when i heard you saying that,
because you didn’t forget about it.
Oh what am i thinking manzxz!!!!
YUKI KIEW DONT FORGET THAT YOU HAVE GOT YOUR BBOY!!!